Sunday, November 13, 2005
4 walls,
no sunshine,
as if it is dooms day.
cold as ice,
darkness fills the room.
fear have covered my heart,
the sound of thunder plays in my mind.
in fear,
i cried 4 help.
will anyone hear me?
hear this girl's cries?
NO!
thousand of knives had stabbed me in the heart,
tears rolling down,
like a river.
NO use crying!
people keep condemming me
but im just like a stone;
no feelings, no heart
ORDER! ORDER!
confused, innocent
down with a statement.
"Sentence 2 death"
i felt my my mouth was heavy,
2 defend myself.
but the decision is made.
no option but 2 follow order...
waiting 4 the day 2 come by,
n soon it arrives,
n im free from this world....
lonely gothic me. [11:54 AM]
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
hey there... Hari Raya is cuming... still gt one dae of fasting... been bz cleaning the hse... tired man... bt nvm... hari raya cn enjoy 2 the core n i cnt wait 2 get collection(hhaha..money,money, here i cme).. cnt wait 4 tht dae 2 cme.. visit my relatives, see all my cuzzins.. get 2 play wit em(aiyoh fad! u still small kid huh?!haha), joke around... n best part u cn eat different variety of food.. yum,yum.. hahaah.. ok, i gtg nw cz im quite bz nw... after hari raya i will update again... outz!
lonely gothic me. [8:53 PM]
Thursday, October 20, 2005
I never really knew you...You were just another friend...But when I got to know you,I let my heart unbend... I couldn't help past memoriesthat would only make me cry...I had to forget my past...and give love another try...So I've fallen in love with you...and I'll never let you goI love you more than anyone...I just had to let you know...And if you ever wonder why...I don't know what I'll say... But I'll never stop loving youeach and every dayMy feelings for you will never change... Just know my feelings are true... Just remember one thing... I Love You!
lonely gothic me. [9:14 PM]
everyone is sick of this,but i must say again,the vain these people put me through,and the good times that i miss.if only i knew why,why they didnt like me,then you wouldnt hear my poor heart,through your head, crying, crying.how much ive cried,how much ive lost,i see them smiling through the frost.the frost on that window,stands for all the loners,and all the widows,but dont forget that little girl,whos hiding in the shadows
lonely gothic me. [9:08 PM]
Life is bleeding all over the world the color red.Flowing freely from the vein, the knife is stained with the world's blood.I'll drink the man's percious poison to experience the night.The flashback of our time I want once more.I have become a Gothic character thirsty for death.The light goes out; I see the truth no more.With my antagonist I have a fight before me.Too agonizing to bare, I'll take the world's dagger and end my detour.
lonely gothic me. [8:55 PM]
lonely gothic me. [2:09 PM]
Monday, September 19, 2005
That's me!
lonely gothic me. [4:13 PM]
Sunday, August 28, 2005
u r so mean! u backstab me in silence.. i got to knw about it.. who do u tink u r? u make me suffer in silence knowing u have been backstabbing me all this while.. but nvm.. i will let u suffer in silence 2 but worse than u expect it to be; worse than death.. u can enjoy now but soon u will suffer like the wae u did it 2 me.. there's no turning back 4 u.. i have been quiet all this while but u had exceeded ur limits in wadeva that u do 2 hurt me.. now its my turn to do so... hahaha.. i actually dunn wanna revenge but its way off the limits... revenge is alwaes sweet.. haha... i'll make sure u get the sweetest of my revenge... u r so selfish.. u alwaes tink of urself.. who do u tink u r?? a princess?? puihh!!! so disgusted.. u actually make use of ur beauty 2 seduce ppl n make them do wadd u say.. u tink u r so pretty izzit? my grandmother is much more prettier than u.. ur prettyness wont last long as ur heart is not pure as in u r a bad person in silence.. if u wanna get back at me, y not u say it face 2 face wit me? u scared or wadd?? u dont have 2 seduce other ppl 2 get back at me rite? u r worse than a bitch! last time u called me a bitch but now u r a shameless bitch!! u r such a coward! fancy seducing, using other ppl 2 get back at me.. if i am the old me, ur dead meat! u r so sellfish! nvr tink of other ppl's feelings...if u r the person reading it or u know u r the person, u better watch out coz fad's out there 4 ur sweetest revenge 2 be fulfilled!
lonely gothic me. [3:15 PM]
Saturday, August 06, 2005
long time nvr update.. soo sorry.. i juz finish my common test.. 4 the past few weeks i have been bz.. my common test, my drama performance 4 the NDP thingy.. n now guess wat?? im sick.. i had lost my voice due to yesterday not only yesterdae, but last thursday oso i had been shouting like a crazy gal.. man yesterday i came home late around 11 plus.. got drama performance at NAFA.. wow.. the school was damn confusing n nice.. really.. wen we reach at NAFA, the SYF drama was getting ready; wearing make up.. wow.. it was nice.. then we wen to the blackbox.. n the whole room was black.. so nice but it was damn cold after some time u r in the room... then the SYF people started to rehearse their performances.. it was damn crazy as it was full of laughter.. Syikin was noisy n funny.. she alwaes make ppl laugh in the middle of a tense situation.. she will alwaes say 'wow'... n that makes ppl laugh.. haha..the NAFA had an event of the dunno wat 05/06... wen the time of the performances, the guest of honour was Mr Kirpal.. then the Bowen drama perform first.. man it was terrific... n next was the Bowen Chinese opera or drama.. i dunno la... then after that was, a drama called 'teochew porridge'.. quite funny la.. after that was the chinese tongue twister by NAFA students.. veri funny.. after that was performed by a NAFA student named Barney.. man.. it was so like RA.. some sort of like that.. man he talked dirty.. summore wen he take out his chocolate bar n started rubbing it.. it was so disgusting... but it was hilarious.. after the whole thingy the whole bowen drama took photo wif the VIP; Mr Kirpal..we were so noisy.. we kept posing...haha.. n u know wat?? the person taking the photo was an actor; Andrew Lim.. at first i couldn't recognise him.. but wen i look closely, it was him.. now he is slim oready... haha... man yesterday was really a great fun... totally crazy.. haha.. i'll stop here 4 now coz i gtg now.. oritez.. c ya... outz...
lonely gothic me. [9:58 PM]
Monday, July 25, 2005
im feeling sooo fuck up 2 dae... haiz... im soo tired plus noo mood.. wad the fuck man.. im feeling down 2day.. i have no one to tok 2 except tis comp... haiz... ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel so fustrated!!!!!! i feel like crying, like shouting n i feel like killing myself... y muz i feel tis wae???????? nvm la.. im sorry if i said 2 much of the bad words.. i juz need to let go of my frust... gtg now.. i really have no mood 2 tok 2 dae.. outz!
lonely gothic me. [2:38 PM]
